Blazed Glazed

Blazed glazed and in a craze
I start to pace and it makes me go into a haze
I wonder what's gonna be the next page
In this maze that's all the dayz of my life
I hit a wall and I fall back to the start
I wish I was smart
Then maybe I would be able to play my part
But I'm not and it feels like a stab in the heart

So here I am all alone
Standing right beside my phone
My life is blown
I wish I had anyone's besides my own
I knew I should have never gotten stoned
Now look at me I just sit here and moan
As I sit there with blood coming out of my wrist
It starts to burn as I clinch my fist
I think about pulling out but I must persist
Slowly a mist goes over my eyes
When I realized I just died

Some people asked why?
Others just sit there and cried
My parents thought it was that I had no pride
My mom falls to here knees and looked up at the sky
Saying God he was too young to die
With a tear coming out of her eye
She said I need him more than you
It wasn't his time he wasn't due

My little brother didn't comprehend
He thinks he will see me the coming weekend
This isn't make believe or pretend
He thinks he can just call heaven and ask
Is my brother there?
There is this bully at school and I'm scared
And there is this monster in my closet
And do you think he'll mind if I wear his jacket?
I have a picture of him in my power ranger wallet
See that's him and I look just like him
He said he will take me to the gym
And he is supposed to play basketball with me
Will you let him down just for 2 days I plea

So the only thing I'm remember by
Is the epitaph on my gravestone
"Her lies a kid at the age of 15
Who's death was far unseen
His eyes were covered by a dark screen
He thought he was all alone
Forsaken tormented and unknown
Now all that we remember of him is this stone..."

by Andy