Back up plan

by Yessenia Osorio

yessenia.c.osorio@hotmail.com

She wanted me to be her rock

but I wasnt strong enough

She wanted me to be the shoulder to lean on

But I was never there

She wants me to be honest and tell her whats goin on in my life

But she dont understand that I have no trust in her and that "ima do me"

She wanted me to be her one and only

But I had more than one

She was in search for love

But she never found it in me

She wanted things between us to be "picture perfect"

But my "picture perfect" wasnt with her

She wanted it to last forever

But my forever doesnt last as long

She wanted it to be just us

But there was always someone else

She wanted me to say I love you

But all I could say was loved you too

She wanted me to show emotion

But all I could do is say "I dont care"

She wanted me to grow up and decide

But how can I when my love for her was there

She wanted me to forget the past

But all I could do is tell her "the past effects the present yessenia"

She wanted us to be solid

But it would always end up in hurt and heartache

She didnt want to let go

But she doesnt know that I let go a long time ago

She wanted me to know that the 17th would make two years

But she dont know that on that same day I kissed another

She would grab me and cry in my face pleading to talk

But I would tell her no Im busy not now and then walk away

She would say "im done crying for you this is the last tear i shed"

But I know thats a lie and so does the world

She wanted "us" to try once again

But Im tired of on and off

She wanted me to forget my others

But she keeps coming back....I loved her...

..trusted her...claimed her...and now shes just

my back up plan